Shoes, school and stuff

Have realised after last nights fiasco trying to write a blog on my home computer that it ain't going to happen, so until my parents get a new computer (hell will freeze over before then, without a doubt, computers will not even look like computers, they will be manic robots that have taken over the earth or some such tale. I digress, sorry...) I am stuck to using the school computers during my study periods, when I'd much rather be doing something vaguely resembling study. I have had to drop advanced higher music which is a complete bummer coz it would have been fantastic if I could've got all three but I was actually making myself physically ill, and like Sharon, but to a lesser extent, I cannot stand feeling sick so I decided that night to drop it, which was only 2 nights ago, hmm...anyway, I had a good night last night at the p7 parents evening, playing my violin (the same piece 6 times over, omw, and it didnt even get better with each one, it fluctuated!! meh!!) down in music, seeing all the terrified kids, it was grand. Tonight I am going to a youth meeting thing at gorgie, supposed to have read this huge document (of course my computer screwed it up when i copied it into notepad so I now have thirty-odd pages when theres probably only supposed to be 10 or something) and I've only read 5 pages. Thought of some stuff though, see if it comes up tonight. Should be fun, love getting involved in these things. Can't help but think people consider me a kid though, I bloomin wish i was a bit older. Tried to work out if I'm part of the same generation of any of the youth fel, but wasnt successful, but it would suck if I wasnt, coz i aint a leader, I'd rather be at the tail end of something! This is only a diary really. was wanting it to be the case that I would write some cool religious stuff (like some people) but i dont think its gonna happen, im not motivated that way. Mr Duncan is yelling really loud just now and it sucks, can't hear myself think. Still got a while before the period ends. What else has been going on? OH!!! IM GETTING STILETTOS!!! HAHAHA!!! sorry, am quite excited. "excited about shoes?!" i hear you exclaim, and yes shoes I like. A new pair of chucks and a pair of dunlops are on my list too! But i have no money so that sucks. well actually I do but its all going to either my phone bill (omw) or my violin fund (yay!).
Aw, am gonna talk about gorgie for a bit now. Spent a WHOLE HOUR counting ONE persons money from self-denial, ONE. i was not impressed. I wanted to go out collecting, actually i prefer enveloping but either/or. What was I thinking about gorgie for? Something should come to me. hmm...well it seems to be going ok at the minute, things are working. wanna get mmore involved though, that is a plan of mine for the next year, now that I have way more time on my hands. ill see what comes along, I'm sure God will have something lined up for me there, I sooo want that to be the case. No, He will...I hope. meh, was gonna say ill finish with that happy thought but now im like doubting, again. no! its fine! cause i found out that some people doubted that i didnt know doubted so thats encouraging, in a weird way. No, it is steph it is. talking to myself on a blog, wow, it really is the way forward. right do have to go, advanced higher chemistry now. take care everyone! really really do!