I'm Back!!!!!!!!!

So, really REALLY quick update:
- started uni
- life's pretty great

That's about it really.

So, down to business.

I've been doing a lot of reading lately, on the buses. It's been amazing. Anyhoo, I've just finished Velvet Elvis, and for those of you who have read it you'll agree that it totally smacks you right in the face. It made me remember Mr Howie doing a wee chat a few years ago at our youth church about how it's our generation that will redefine the church (at least that's what I think it was about, I was only 14 or something). Yeah, so on the bus I was thinking, a lot. I even had my "pondering face" on, and that means it's serious stuff. There's a story at the end. Bell's sitting in a church service, and the vicar dude tells people that if they want to become Christians and go to heaven etc then all they have to do is pray this prayer and that's them, sorted. First off I had a problem with that. So vicar asks everyone to close their eyes and pray, and if they become Christians they are to raise their hands and not worry, ' cause everyone has their eyes closed anyway. So the vicar's like oh yeah, i see hands up, thank you, blah.

Bell's got his eyes open.

And he don't see no hands going up.

Does that not make your blood run cold? Does that not make your entire mind and soul and heart and body just want to scream? (obviously you should read the ACTUAL story, not my crappy description).

And I was thinking, how many people are observers. How many people are sitting. And watching. Trying to suss stuff out. And how many church people (not Christians, church people) realise this? How many church people know that their actions, every second of them can have eternal consequences for everybody else?

Are leaders doing their thing properly? A few situations recently, and stories in that book, have made me start to think, maybe in a tiny wee voice, that the answer to that is no.

And I'm not perfect, NO WHERE NEAR. But it scares me, it scares me a lot, that people who can get it so wrong, don't notice, maybe don't even care when they do.

I think the church has to go back to its fundamentals. Restart, redefine itself. I never thought I would think like this to be perfectly honest. And I don't know where to go with these thoughts. But I know it's gotta happen, because it's the way it's supposed to be.

Hope you're all wonderful.

Love.x