I was saying to my mum yesterday, Sundays don't feel Sundays anymore. Sundays used to feel special. I used to look forward to them because they were completely different from any other day. They were mad! It was great! Used to get up, get ready for the meeting, have a good meeting, get home, have quick lunch, sit down/do homework for a while, get ready again, go out for another meeting! I mean, it was great! Then, last night, was in the kitchen and I was like, hmm...this doesn't feel like a Sunday anymore. It got to me a lot. It just felt like any other day.
But it shouldn't be like any other day.
Sunday should be special.
It should be a day of refreshment, and re-routing and meeting with other Christians. A day that's not like the others. A day where you take time to think, ask questions, and maybe get some answers. A day where you know you can spend all your time concentrated on God and on God stuff.
Now, I'm not meaning that this can't be done some other time in the week. But I find that I get distracted all too easily by uni, or people, or stress or other stuff that the world flings at me. I would love to have a place where I can go and learn and grow spiritually. I guess my church isn't doing that for me just now.
It troubles me.
Maybe I'm reading too much "contemporary" stuff. Velvet Elvis has totally changed my perspective on a whole load of stuff, and I can't decide whether that's a good thing or not.
Oh, I don't mean that people at church are getting to me, I mean that what we do at church isn't doing anything for me.
Am I gonna have to change church?!
I don't want to!
Meh.
What to do?
I'm trying to explore and discover the diversity of the church I belong too. Because it's pretty diverse. Maybe I'm getting bored of tradition (what is going on with the world....?) because ((deep)) and Catch the Fire are appealing to me way more than a Sunday morning meeting.
I'm concerned.
I love the Army, I wouldn't change it for the world. Maybe it will have to change someday. Who knows?
Hmm...I do like my church. Writing all this stuff has helped me sort it out in my head a bit. But I still want more.
Sorry for my rambling. It probably doesn't make much sense.
Hope all is well.
x
2 comments:
Hi there Steph. Hope you don't mind me making a comment. I like listening to you rambling on and I share your feelings of frustration and at times feel like trying another church. But then I figure if I don't like it then it's up to me to change it. After all the church is made up of people like me and you.
For what its worth, I figure you need to get more involved in being a voice of change. Let's talk how sometime.
Any time Christians meet up wither it be in the "archaic formality" of "church", or otherwise, should always be special and wanting that is never a bad thing.
Experiencing new things, new worships formats, reading "new" ideas, is excellent stuff and should always force us to re-examine what we do individually and corporately as a fellowship. It may be cheesy and overused phrase but it is still true that Christ did not create an establishment but a movement.
And just to be me, use asked "Am I gonna have to change church?!"... Yes. You just need to ask God wither he wants to you to change venues, or to help change where you are... Ah... twisting peoples words... such fun :)
And as I always say, always want more, always keep searching, and keep asking the toughest questions no matter the answers.
Laters
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